《謝謝你們 愛我的每個人》

就是拥有了太多的感触，一首首脍炙人口的歌在耳边奏起时就好比唱出了我的心声。我不能说我经历了人生的每一个阶段，我仅度过人生的一载。

但是，一路上的成长塑造了今天的我。
种种的酸甜苦辣我一一尝尽。再大的风雨，我仍不能停歇。
被打倒了一次，我学会再一次站起来，
学会勇敢地面对一切，
学会敞开胸怀，坦然接受，
学会相信希望永存，
让我拥有这份坚强的意志力。

I have my right to live the way I want

I'm just so not in the mood in talking to certain people nowadays. They seem like they know a lot about me but in the actual fact, it's just a superficial illusion. God knows who you are.

True friends are like precious jewels, they are treasure for one to find and to keep with them through the years to come. I cannot deny that true friends are hardest to find. To me, I rather have two to three true friends than a bunch of friends that I can never count on. Five years of highschool, it's now coming to an end. Just a couple months away, we will be bidding farewell and so, I don't see the point of all these "revealing your true colours" thing. If you prefer to do so, you can just get out of my way. Just out of my way. I don't want to see you in the entirety of my life. I will rather believe that I never have such a friend before.

No doubts that people change, both physically and mentally. One who never changes is not a human, alright? It's the process of growing up. Though one may change, you can change for the better or for the worst. Even if one may 'seem' to change, but when you get close to him/her, sooner or later you still feel the closeness and the bond that we share all this while. That's the only point of changing. If you changed, and you are like an absolute stranger to me, what's the point?

I never hated life. Life is a blessing to me. Hope is what I hold on to through these years. I have learnt to be mentally strong because this is what life has taught me. I have my believes, I have my own way of rationalizing. That's just me. I grow up, I change, for the better. I find my own motivations, my own inspirations, my aspirations and my dreams to chase. I try to live my live to the fullest with one simple reason, life is a gift, life is a blessing.

Sorry to say I won't be bothered with whatever you are doing. I have learnt to be courageous and strong.

When there's no second chance

I'm sure none of us will reject a second chance that is given. But, there are times that no matter how hard we hope for it, it never comes into reality. For instance, we made a mistake and there's no way you can 'undo' your mistake, unlike the 'undo' button you can opt to click when we have made typing errors. Same goes with the journey of life.When you have made such a crucial decision and you know there's no u-turn to it, there're only two possibilities, it's either a good or a bad outcome. Who will ever hope to face the bad one? Life has never hit me so hard and so it does, on the very last two years of high school. It's more than a roller coaster ride of feelings. Words can't express how much I felt. Those heart-wrenching moments and the emotional blow that took hold of me are enough to make me fall hard. Here comes the consequences of growing up. All about making decisions and choices. There's always something you will regret as you may be young and free once or too gullible to come into realisation of the truth lurking behind it. I always thought that I'm ready to accept the reality -- problems of growing-up; I thought I could manage them; I thought I had the capacity to contain them as much as I could. Again and again, for a billion times, I was proved to be totally wrong. I can accept it superficially but not entirely, I can't manage them well enough; I can only contain them temporarily. Bits and pieces of high school life once puzzled together can be one of a nightmare or one of a priceless memory etched in one's heart, and I have both. It's nothing to brag about, both have their pros and cons. I may view things at a completely different perspectives with others which I always do. I have my own distinctive way of thinking and rationalizing them. I can't blame others for not understanding me as true enough, I am unique.

Life choices are not like picking one out of four like the multiple choice in tests or exams. They are way beyond that. I regretted for so much that I had done. Though they were many who came up to me, trying to show me the light but yet I failed to be a wise one, and instead being a selfish and harsh one. I could not turn back time, never would I be able to do so. To look ahead for a dazzling future may also be too fictional.

Time and tide wait for no man. No matter how much are burdened on my shoulders, life has to keep rolling and I still has to move on. Easier said than to be done. However, I can only hope fervently for the best to come.