Reality strikes

I don't know what more to feel with my results anymore. It's a mixture of disppointment and sadness, not much of a regret. As I have always believed that hard work will definitely pay off, but this may only be partially true this time. It's probably not worth taking any risk in major exams as such but well, I was surprised that I actually took the risk and so I didn't really fare well in it. I'm definitely not a good risk-taker.
My SPM results may have closed doors that lead me to my future, my dream. This is where the disappointment really overwhelms me. Anyhow, life has to go on and I have to move on. It's time for me to pick myself up to face the next challenge. It's going to be a journey with tougher paths to walk which I'm not up for it. It's my expectation to my result that truly hurts me. I know I should never give up. Despite the uphill challenges that I will be facing in the next few months, I will take it as it is. I'm staying strong.

To all my friends, teachers, my family, my boy, thanks for the endless support and encouragement. Most of all, the motivation that you all have given especially when I'm lost has truly lifted my spirit. Much love for you all :)

Results day

For all '97ers who sat for spm, tomorrow will be THE day for us to receive our results. From afraid, anxious, worried to scared, I don't know what more to feel anymore. It can be said to carry much weight, at the same time, it may not. Sigh. I'm really really hoping for the best and keeping my fingers crossed. It's making me feel unwell these few days for being over-anxious.
No matter how the results will be tomorrow, I shall take it as it is, right? The higher the hope I'm putting on my results, the greater the disappointment. Well, I guess I failed to stay positive!
On the brights side, I will get to meet my classmates and friends after two months plus, probably the last time I will get to meet most of them. How I wish my boy will be there with me tomorrow. Time to stay strong :)