A grin hides the pain

It has truly been a tough time for me, I would say. Being real honest, being strong is the only choice I have. I could have broken down at any point of time, I could have shed tears, but I don't deserve to place myself in such a situation. Words can't express how much I am feeling for the past few weeks. I smiled, I laughed and joked around with my friends in college. I hope that makes it easier for me to pull though the toughest time. However, whenever I start pondering, feelings overwhelmed me. I don't know how long it's going to take for me to get over it. What more choices I'm left with other than being the tough girl.

I'm truly grateful for my bunch of friends who are always there for me on the stormy days. I'm so thankful to be blessed with such friendships since high schools. At such a time, they could come to me and comforted me with all their might. Though they can't help me much, I feel loved and appreciated when they could come and tell me that they have my back. Thank you, guys.

I just got to say the relationship has lasted for a year, and just when it was our one year, it struck me really hard when it was the end to it as well. Frustration and disappointment wrench my heart whenever I though of how much we have been through. I just got to say, one year may sound easy to anyone else out there but if you were in my shoes, you would feel it differently. From talking over the phone to getting together secretly, breaking up, a heated argument and our trip down north during the holiday. All the memories were created together. I constantly reminded myself how lucky I am to be blessed with someone who love me eternally. I have no qualms on why we have to embark on a LDR. I accepted it as it was with a simple reason, I want the best for you. I gave my full support for you, from preparing for your departure to helping you to settle down in the UK. Despite missing you terribly, I walked extra miles to be your pillar of support as I knew you need me more than I do. I kept my problems so that you could see the smiley girl who you wanted to see. Much sacrifices and thoughts I have put in in the LDR, which is one I have no regrets of. LDR was all tough. It's the truth. If I'm give a choice, it's one that I will never want to pull through. But, I will say struggling with the last four months more than a challenge. You never know how strong you can be until being strong is the only choice you have. When tears are about to trickle, you just have to take it easy and tell yourself all will be fine. You know you have to walk through a lot of things alone and have countless problems laden on your shoulder. Even when you are just so stressed up, you have to take things one at a time.

Being a girl and able to pull through all these by holding on to faith, hope and trust, I absolutely have no regrets. It was truly a life lesson for me to be courageous and be brave, which I have learnt tremendously. Thank you for giving me the best time of  my life. No matter where you will be and where I will be, I still hope for the best for you, as you were someone who I truly love and am grateful for. I may not be the perfect one you are looking for, but I believe one day life will take me to somewhere, someone who will be able to love me, appreciate me and care for me for the entirety of his life. Now, I am given the freedom to pursue my dreams in other parts of the world and set free to count the little things and moments which I may have neglected for the past one year. Moving on is not easy but one step at a time, I will pull though it. Thank you for bringing the best out of me.

Keep smiling. Make them wonder how you are still smiling.

感恩曾经拥有

我从未想过有这么一天我会写起这篇文章。

首先，我很感恩曾经拥有的，很感激你让我在挫折中仍然学会了微笑。从天性文静，选择封闭自己的我到如今较为开朗的我可以说是一大的迈进。或许，我们无法像童话故事中的主角携手画下完美的结局，也无法一起为我们的将来一起奋斗，无法再次篇写最难忘的回忆，无法。。。。。。。

再多的不舍，再多的失落，再多的委屈，我，选择了微笑着面对。这是唯一我会留下的回忆——坚强地在逆境中挂起一丝笑容。一路上的碰碰撞撞，结局的扭转，分分离离，让我学会了勇敢。


谢谢你为我留下了美好的回忆。