Done with highschool!

SPM ended on the first week of December but I felt like I had sat for it months ago haha. Well, it was quite a tough hurdle, to be honest. I struggled through it and I could not imagine how I would pull through it without him. As the examination board implemented High Order Thinking Skills in each and every one of the paper, all the papers took us by surprise with quite a handful of unusual questions that are sort of like open-ended questions. They require our opinions instead of answers that can be easily found from any books. I admit that it's a good start for Malaysia education system but for such a drastic change in a major exam as such, it's really unfair to the 97's. Once again, we became their lab rats. Now, I believe we can only pray fervently for an 'extraordinary' results, judging from the 'high standard' of the papers.

Highschool had drawn to an end after the last paper of SPM. To bid farewell with the bunch of highschool mates is indeed heart-wrenching. All of us shared bittersweet memories. What etched in my heart is the true friends that have been my mental support for these five years, through the ups and downs. They proved that the life can't get any worse when they are around. I'm truly grateful for that. High school has blessed me with my self-claimed non-biological twin sister (you know who you are!). We don't have to meet or talk every day but whenever we do, we seem to be out of control -- we will talk like nobody's business. *don't judge* not to forget, my other bestie who hails from Penang and has left my school after form two. This proves how much we appreciate each other as a friend. Friendship like such is what I cherish the most. I can be who I am when we hang out together and they accept me as who I am. Even when there's an argument, we can eventually get over it in no time.

In less than a month time, I will be starting college. I'm actually anticipating for a brand new start in a new environment and on a new course, unlike in high school, where we are forced to adapt to the education system that makes no sense sometimes. I keep reminding myself that I must not be fearful. True enough, there's actually nothing that I should be afraid of, probably just the subjects that I will be taking. It isn't an easy decision on which college to go and which subjects that I should take. First of all, I'm relieved that my family is financially stable but I won't want to burden my father even more with a huge sum of tuition fee as he's the sole breadwinner of the family. Furthermore, I have to be considerate as while I'm taking A-Levels, my brother will be doing his first year in university and for the following years, he will be studying abroad. That's lots of money. Secondly, I'm truly hoping for a scholarship with a higher amount although I'm grateful for what I'm offered by my college now. The meagre hope depends on my SPM result which will only be released during March next year. Though I planned to switch to other colleges with a bursary that is offered by Ministry of Education, it will be a waste of money and time. Moreover, I may not even get the bursary.

It hits me that from tomorrow onwards, he (yes, he!) will be leaving for UK in a week time. I'm definitely going to miss him lots. As the famous saying goes, absence makes the heart grows fonder. I truly believe that with faith and courage, nothing is impossible. We will have to make the best out of it, pull through it and prove everyone wrong. While for those that have trust in us and respect our decisions all this while, from the bottom of my heart, I'm truly grateful for you guys!

p/s: this will probably be my last post using the 'High School' label, next it will be 'College'!