New year, new beginnings

2015 a whole new year for me. I'm hitting new milestones such as to be in college and becoming an Omega Leo as well as unlocking a new challenge in my relationship. It's time for me to learn and grow even more. I have always preferred to be in my comfort zone. Speaking of socializing, I'm awkwardly shy. More towards a listener and a doer, I will quietly listen when there's a group conversation going on or a discussion (devastatingly, this fails me badly during a scholarship interview). This is the time when I will observe and put my thoughts together to weigh the ideas before I give my point of view. I won't say that this is a strength of mine as this habit of me eventually makes me less carefree when speaking and also I eventually becomes afraid of voicing out because I will judge myself before others do.

After today's first Leo general meeting, I had the opportunity to meet new friends and mingle around with this new bunch of fun seniors. We had something sort of like a fellowship lunch and dessert session. Though I was terribly tired after the long day, I will definitely take it as a well-spent day! Most of all, transitioning from an Alpha to an Omega Leo is another journey for self development. Being a Leo for the past three years has been a life-changing experience as I have always mentioned. It's more than meeting new people, giving back to the society and picking up leadership skills. Without doubts, the one thing that I enjoy and appreciate the most through being a Leo is to truly able to know who I am and what I'm able to do. In other words, it's more of a platform for find out my potentials. Through this, I aim to be a better person and gain the long-lost confidence of mine. Haha.

New year, new beginnings. One of my leo senior put up with the idea that all of us should ponder: what's our aim/goal in the club? And so, it sort of gives me the inspiration to have new life goals for the year.

1. Or course, be a better person! Improve my weaknesses such being an emotional doer, judgemental and self-centered

2. Cure the negativity in me (not a single thought of it) and be a more positive person such as to be more carefree, cheerful and happy-go-lucky

3.  To live my life to the fullest. That's what I have been trying to do for the past one year and now, I'll be making the best out of the best. What I meant 'to the fullest' is making every single that I lived worthwhile like doing a small gesture to make someone's day.

4. To stay strong! Both physically and mentally. First, I have been leading quite a sedentary lifestyle for the past three years by quitting sport activities for studies or other sorts of 'relaxation'. So, I guess it's time for me to be right on the track to be a fitter person and for me to unwind myself after a day in college.
While for mentally, it has been 11 days since my bf has left for London for college. Sadly, we have to start a LDR which is a whole new challenge for us. Now, we both have to juggle up studies and relationship. Well, it's never an excuse for us to give up on it after what we had been through but it's a journey that we'll walk through together.

5. Appreciate what I'm blessed with; my family, friends and my love one. At this time of my life, there's so much for me to truly be appreciative of, even a single act of them counts a lot to me. I have left highschool and those friendships that can be kept going make me feel so grateful. While for my family, I have learnt to foster a better relationship with them. And also, be thankful for my love one who relentlessly pull through the hurdles with me and putting up with me.

6. Most most most importantly, college! I will definitely prioritize my studies beside from enjoying college life. A Levels is claimed to be one of the toughest of all the per-university course *sobs* but oh well, it's not something that I should be afraid of! I just want to give my best, achieve excellent grades and gain admittance to my dream universities.

That's all! I'm looking forward to college life, starting from next Monday which is the day after tomorrow. Haha, I can finally call myself a college girl and also....getting rid of the ugly uniform that I wore in high school.