The day has finally arrived - to be installed as an Omega Leo and the Assistant Secretary of Leo Club of PJI. To me, I have much feel for this day, till this very moment after the ceremony ended.
So here I am putting my thoughts to words once again. It was never easy starting afresh along my journey, finding light from the pitch black darkness where I was dwelling in. I'm just beyond blessed to be in this big family. I'm so grateful for all the opportunities provided and trust that the seniors have given me because these recognition mean more than anything to me. The contentment comes from the words of encouragement from my seniors although being part of this loving family requires much more commitment and dedication. Their tremendous support teaches me to love myself more. I believe here, I will be a better person who I will be proud of.
Saturday, July 25, 2015
Sunday, July 12, 2015
没有人可以阻止妳，因为妳是妳的
一步一脚印， 我领悟的真的不少，累积的只有越来越多。当不上了意料之外的转捩点，我最大的的感触莫过于身边爱我的人，仍然相信我，愿意肩并肩带领我走出黑暗的每一个人。 我常说我多么珍惜他们，然而这一刻，我所想说的并不是我多么的感激他们，而是多么的感恩他们的无私，他们的坚持，还有感谢他们如何为我点亮了我生命中的那把坚强的火炬。不管曾经发生了什么大小事，他们还是无条件的扮演我身边的守护天使。
有的时候，我会渴望时间逆流，回到那段挺难忘，懵懂的岁月。甜美的回忆总是情不自禁地嵌入心房。再多的不舍，再多的委屈，只有抿嘴一笑，大步地继续往前走。豆蔻年华之十八载，我还是用很长远的路要走，停下不是一种选择。
一桩桩事情，我更加能够肯定自己会找一片更属于我，更好的天空。雨后的彩虹会是更艳丽的。我也很感谢这个让我磨炼自己的机会，因为这个艰难的路途让我找回了自己，让我学会肯定自己，让我释怀地接受命运的残酷和不公平，还有让我更加爱自己和为自己拟定我所想要的未来。
一个偶然的机遇，我发现的并不少。
爱情就像一部棋，下了那一步，没有回转的余地。掌控棋局的幕后推手让你因当局者迷之因而盲目地去爱。傻气，稚气会让一个人更加地受伤害。
不管前景如何，不管我们俩的机遇如何，这一段路，没有你，还是没有今天的我。我别无选择下学会勇敢和坚强，学会爱自己。感恩这一段初恋。
还有，我只想努力地活得更好。并不是因为我想证明没有了你，我活得很好，我其实在试着找回自己，完成我的意愿，还有我的梦想。
“以前的妳恋爱，觉得爱妳的人最好，
但现在的妳要的爱情则是，
爱的想法更妳一样的人，最好。
爱情里面，没有谁对不起谁，
只有谁不爱了谁。
单纯的爱或许不简单，
但是要勉强去谈自己不认同的爱，欲更难。
妳并不是选择了单身，
而是选择了自己想要的爱情。
原来时针一直停留在他离开的那一天，
天气，电影或者音乐，中有让妳想起他的理由。”
取之《想念，却不想见的人》
有的时候，我会渴望时间逆流，回到那段挺难忘，懵懂的岁月。甜美的回忆总是情不自禁地嵌入心房。再多的不舍，再多的委屈，只有抿嘴一笑，大步地继续往前走。豆蔻年华之十八载，我还是用很长远的路要走，停下不是一种选择。
一桩桩事情，我更加能够肯定自己会找一片更属于我，更好的天空。雨后的彩虹会是更艳丽的。我也很感谢这个让我磨炼自己的机会，因为这个艰难的路途让我找回了自己，让我学会肯定自己，让我释怀地接受命运的残酷和不公平，还有让我更加爱自己和为自己拟定我所想要的未来。
一个偶然的机遇，我发现的并不少。
爱情就像一部棋，下了那一步，没有回转的余地。掌控棋局的幕后推手让你因当局者迷之因而盲目地去爱。傻气，稚气会让一个人更加地受伤害。
不管前景如何，不管我们俩的机遇如何，这一段路，没有你，还是没有今天的我。我别无选择下学会勇敢和坚强，学会爱自己。感恩这一段初恋。
还有，我只想努力地活得更好。并不是因为我想证明没有了你，我活得很好，我其实在试着找回自己，完成我的意愿，还有我的梦想。
“以前的妳恋爱，觉得爱妳的人最好，
但现在的妳要的爱情则是，
爱的想法更妳一样的人，最好。
爱情里面，没有谁对不起谁，
只有谁不爱了谁。
单纯的爱或许不简单，
但是要勉强去谈自己不认同的爱，欲更难。
妳并不是选择了单身，
而是选择了自己想要的爱情。
原来时针一直停留在他离开的那一天，
天气，电影或者音乐，中有让妳想起他的理由。”
取之《想念，却不想见的人》
Friday, July 10, 2015
Be your own sunshine
Entering July, my second semester in college, sometimes I would just drown myself in a vast sea and ponder how have I struggled and staggered through one of the toughest time in my life, question why would I choose to be here struggling to give my best academically. I always thought that "hey, I made the right decision for myself!" at the beginning but eventually I am engulfed by regret. I was just being myself, being stubborn and always believing in myself more than anyone. I was rebellious, I'm still am. You can't get away from it. But I'm glad I am. It correlates with my strong determination to pursue what I want, and be living dreams - loving what I live, doing what I love. Along the journey of self-discovery for the past few months, I gradually have a clearer picture of where I should belong to. Fame and perception have me bogged down all this while. I was being naive and innocent. I tend to follow the flow. I always wanted to be others.
Now, I know that's not what I should look up to, that's not what I want.
Indeed, I'm grateful that I was given the opportunity to embark on this tough ride. Because it has made me grow stronger day by day, and driven me to be who I should be. I deserve better.
Expectations could be viewed negatively and positively. Anyone will eventually be so, incredibly tired of living up to expectations. This is how perceptions are involved; people would perceive you as a smart kid, an A student while expecting you to achieve even remarkable results. I was once there, chasing for all the As and neglecting the purpose of life.
Today, blinded by how realistic the society is, many people tend to have their perceptions as tools to influence others. I hated this much. As much as I don't know much about arts or humanities courses, I never despise them; in fact I try to learn as much as I could. But I would still meet people who are there trying hard to tell you to be "realistic" and not live your dreams. We may have totally distinct interest but it's not up to anyone else to tell you what you should be and what you should do. You are who you are.
Next, fame. Yeah you could have all the fame going to prestigious universities, leaving home and bidding farewell to your beloved family and friends. Your parents would be able to hold their head high up when they are asked of their child's whereabout, but on the other hand, financial capability will most probably be a major concern of many. It's a bare fact that no matter how incredibly excellent a person is, without money, you may have been confined to a narrower range of choices on what and where to pursue your degree. Naked truth hurts. Dreams may have to be washed down the drain or be kept aside as it all comes down to reality. However, one day, as long as you keep trying and keep believing, there's still a ray of hope, I believe.
"Forget all the reason why it won't work and believe the one reason why it will,"
your life belongs to you
Yours sincerely,
Mish
Now, I know that's not what I should look up to, that's not what I want.
Indeed, I'm grateful that I was given the opportunity to embark on this tough ride. Because it has made me grow stronger day by day, and driven me to be who I should be. I deserve better.
Expectations could be viewed negatively and positively. Anyone will eventually be so, incredibly tired of living up to expectations. This is how perceptions are involved; people would perceive you as a smart kid, an A student while expecting you to achieve even remarkable results. I was once there, chasing for all the As and neglecting the purpose of life.
Today, blinded by how realistic the society is, many people tend to have their perceptions as tools to influence others. I hated this much. As much as I don't know much about arts or humanities courses, I never despise them; in fact I try to learn as much as I could. But I would still meet people who are there trying hard to tell you to be "realistic" and not live your dreams. We may have totally distinct interest but it's not up to anyone else to tell you what you should be and what you should do. You are who you are.
Next, fame. Yeah you could have all the fame going to prestigious universities, leaving home and bidding farewell to your beloved family and friends. Your parents would be able to hold their head high up when they are asked of their child's whereabout, but on the other hand, financial capability will most probably be a major concern of many. It's a bare fact that no matter how incredibly excellent a person is, without money, you may have been confined to a narrower range of choices on what and where to pursue your degree. Naked truth hurts. Dreams may have to be washed down the drain or be kept aside as it all comes down to reality. However, one day, as long as you keep trying and keep believing, there's still a ray of hope, I believe.
"Forget all the reason why it won't work and believe the one reason why it will,"
your life belongs to you
Yours sincerely,
Mish
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